In my two recent posts I identified and defined my digital addiction issue, work-a-holism syndrome and consequent “role-strain” and “role-conflicts” impeding any possibility of balance (This Empress Has No Clothes) and, secondly, created a program of recovery in attempts to gain some semblance of restoration of balance and discovery of a “freer” self. (Shake-Up Boot Camp.)
Falling asleep restively last night after a bout of self-recrimination, I awakened with a knot in my throat and the decision to get back to some of the steps on the road to regaining balance.
Sunday Action Plan:
In addressing my self-recrimination rant I have uncovered the culprit- I have been comparing myself to some others in my reference group and fall short. The Theory of Relative Deprivation reigns as I examine financial insecurities and denouement in recent years. In grappling with this I am working at changing the instruments with which I have always measured success and bought into old familial scripts. Redefining the criteria for success is on my plate today.
Today is the day that I am practicing and repeating the mantra I created as part of my “Shake-Up Boot Camp Program.” “Step-by-Step” will be in my pocket and if that is not powerful enough to transform reality and keep the demons at the door, will revert to “Inch-by-Inch” until it clicks and moves me.
I will exercise until I can feel my body again and can take ownership. Exercise is a priority for me releasing endorphins , centering and insulating me.I also break out into song which makes me very giddy.
Sunday is a wonderful day to address and work on new priorities and goals-small and large, short-term and long. Updating and refining these priorities and goals continues on as a critical work in progress.
Ask myself how I can conduct this train and should I keep all passengers on board? Perhaps it is time to unload those who refuse to pay the price of the ticket?
Will count assets and blessings and expel “demons and devils” deeply internalized.
Pro-activity trumps re-activity and will hold up an internalized STOP sign when I allow too many unreasonable demands to bombard and bury me.
Today is the day I will treat myself with as much compassion and kindness as I do unto others.
Today is also the day I will take on and challenge my “Fear of Success’ and begin the process of dismantling and, at last, laying it to rest. Influenced by my dear friend @jdistraction (Latest post “Awake”) I will leap and stretch to grow and overcome the fear and cowardice that keeps me from reaching for the heights and the abundance that could be flowing my way.
This day; this Sunday I am opening the door and my arms to let the abundance in. Let it flow.